***UPDATE***

Well after going to the doctor he started me back on 5 of my meds. I hate taking meds, but as one of my friends reminded me I am not as young as I think I am. So I guess if I need it I need it. My test came back normal in fact my Dr's exact words were "you have sexy blood" and I said "at least I have something sexy". This is Good because I am controlling my insulin resistance with my diet and exercise, but bad because I still have no explanation for my lack of wt loss (other than not getting enough sleep). My trainer again told me I was doing to much, and my body was storing everything because it was going into a stravation mode. He asked me to either cut back on my exercising (to 1 a day) or increase my calorie intake (to 2000 calories a day). So I am only exercising once a day and still taking in around 1200 calories. I had just got started doing that and was getting into my routine when I threw my back out lifting a pt at work. I was not able to do anything for about 2 weeks. I went to the Dr yesterday and got clearance to go ahead and start back into exercising slowly. So I will update more often now that I will be exercising again. Happy New Year Everyone!!!!!

What Now??????

Well several of you are wondering whats going on since I haven't updated my blog.  The sad truth is there is nothing to update.  I am going to the Gym every morning and evening and once on Sat (Sunday- off), and maintaining my 1200 calorie diet.  At my last weigh in I lost one lb.  I was frustrated, but was told I am building muscle at first so this is expected.  I was told to just be patient and wait and see next months numbers.  Well yesterday was my weigh in and measurements and I am sad to report that not only did I only lose 1 lb, but I gained in body fat %, and my measurements went up as well.  It was all I could do to not cry right there in front of my trainer.  I bought the whole "your building muscle" thing the first mth, but what now?  Why am I not losing now?  One lady thought it was because I was working out to much.  You have go to me kidding me.  There is no such thing as working out to much unless you are doing it 24/7 or something, but 3-4 hours a day is not to much.  On the biggest loser they work out for hours.  I am frustrated to no end.  I didn't cry in the Gym, but lost it as soon as I hit my car.  I had all my kids with me and they were all wondering why mom was crying.  My trainer is way frustrated and has never seen this before.  He has trained many many people and has never had this problem.  So off to the doctor to get blood work and see if there might be some underlying issue to prevent me from losing the wt.  I should know more next week, but until them I will contuine to work my butt of and see no results:(

Nov 17, 2009

Well Jim was working out of town so I was not able to go to the gym in the morning just the afternoon.  My calories were really low today, but that is probably a good thing since I did not work out as much.  I am so glad my kids love to go to the gym and hopefully they will contuine to.  My trainer was pleased with me and my eating over the weekend since it was my first weekend away from home since starting this journey.  I did have a pepsi on the way up and back (which I shouldn't have) but all in all I did pretty good. 

-CARDIO-
 * Treadmill: 30 mins, speed 3.3, elevation 2.0, 1.65 miles, burned 155 calories.

-WEIGHTS- (back)
 * Back Raise: 3 sets of 20 reps
 * Cable Seated Low Row: 3 sets of 15 reps, 45 lbs
 * Cable Side Lateral Raise: 6 sets, 15 reps, 30 lbs
 * Lat Pulldown: 3 sets, 15 reps, 40 lbs
 * Swiss Ball "V": 3 sets, 15 reps, 3 lbs
 * Swiss Ball Close Row: 3 sets 15 reps, 5 lbs

-NUTRITION-
 Calories 1109 (1500)
 Fat 32.0 (45-60)
 Carbs 146.5 (170-220)
 Protein 62.9 (150-200)

I ate 1/4 breakfast burrito, 1 med apple, 1 cup grapes, 8 pretzels, 1 string cheese, whey protein w/ skim milk, 1/2 turkey sand on wheat, 1 1/4 cup rice krispies w/ skim milk, 8 kettle chips, & 1/2 granola bar.

Watch It...

Well this weekend I am heading up north. It is going to be a fun weekend, but I will need to watch me caloires and food take in while I am away. Yesterday was less of a workout than normal. I am so tired I figured I needed a little break, and my legs are still wobbley from that crazy leg workout w/ Jason so I only went to the gym once instead of twice.

11/12/2009
{WORKOUT}
-Cardio-
* Ellipitical 20 mins, resistence 6, 1.19 miles, 169 calories burned.

-Weights- (Arms)
* Cable pushdowns: 3 sets, of 20 reps, 30lbs.
* Dumbell curl: 3 sets, 24 reps 8lbs.
* Hammer curl: 3 sets, 12 reps 8 lbs (each arm)
* Triceps Extension: 3 sets 12 reps, 8 lbs.
* Machine Biceps curl: 3 sets 15 reps 30 lbs.
* Machine Triceps Extension: 3 sets 15 reps, 30 lbs.
* Declined Situps: 2 sets 12 reps (I had a hard time with these)
* Standing biceps curl: 3 sets 25 lbs 15 reps.
* Triceps Kickback: 3 sets, 12 reps 8 lbs (each arm)

{NUTRITION}
Calories 1471 (1500)
Fat 29.6 (45-60
Carbs 169.1(170-220)
Protein 129.4 (150-200)

I ate: 1 cup grapes, 1 pk low cal baked doritos, 3 servings protein drink, 1/2 Chicken burrito (chicken, lettuce, pineapple, curry sauce, tomatos), 1 med apple, 1/2 serving chips and salsa, tuna fish (light), 1 slice of 45 cal wheat bread, 1 cup skim milk, 1 cup baked mac & cheese.

Just another day at the Gym!

Well things have been going good. I have been working really hard, and very tired this week. My shoulder has hurt worse and my trainer has backed off the shoulder exercises. It is frustrating because I know it is holding me back a little. Still trying to decide whether to get surgery or not. Right now I can't even throw a baseball or football at all. (My left hand is getting better at throwing though.) Jason (my trainer) has really stepped it up a notch and after ever workout he says "you don't hate me do ya"? Of course I don't! You know me and how competitive I am I love every minute of it. Except lunges I HATE LUNGES!!!! And yesterday I had to do over 100 with weights and twisting. It sucked and my legs are still jello! I am trying to gag down this protein drink to help replinish my muscles. (Actually I am getting to like them a little better). My diet is going good. Jason wants we around 1500 calories a day. I was getting 1500 calories but some of them were the wrong kind of calories. I thought calories were calories and it didn't matter as long as you were are 1500. So after a nutrition lesson (obviously I didn't pat attention in High School and College) I better understand the things I should and shouldn't eat or drink. I have to stay to my 1500 good calories 6 days a week and then I have 1 free day. I makes it easier to know that I don't have to never have a Brads Pepsi again, but just wait until my free day. I would post all my workouts & nutrition but it would take forever so I will just post yesterdays info.

11/11/2009

{WORKOUT}
-Cardio-
*50 min cycling class burned 450 calories.
*32 mins treadmill,1.65 miles,3.3 speed,2.0 elevation,burned 158 calories.

-Weights (Legs)-
*Squats 6 sets of 15 reps
*Offset Squat (10 lbs) 6 sets of 15 reps
*Side Lunges 6 sets of 15 reps (3 sets rt leg, 3 sets lt leg)
*Swiss ball wall squat 3 Sets of 15 reps
*Walking Lunge Twist (8 Lbs ???) 6 sets of 20 reps

{NUTRITION} Range I am shooting for is in ().
*Total calories eaten 1486 (1500)
*Fats 47.8 (45-60)
*Carbs 215.9(170-220)
*Protein 64.2 (150-200)
(Once again I was way low on my protein hence the need to drink the protein drinks.)

Thanks everyone for their support!

You have got to be kidding me!

Well Monday was weigh in day and I have to admit I was a little nervous.  But I also had been working my butt off and eating much better.  So I step on the scale and the numbers go up and up and up.  They finally setteled on 151 lbs.  Are you kidding me! ONE POUND.  I have worked my butt off for one measley pound.  I was upset.  Ok I was pissed!  My triainer could even tell something was wrong.  I was not talking to him and very short with my answers to the questions he asked.  He finally said "Are you ok today?"  I wanted to say "No I am not.  I am working my butt off, spending time away from my family and have nothing to show for it."  But I just said I had a headache (which I did).  Anyway when I got home I unloaded.  I cried and let my frustrations fly.  Jim was so supportative (as he always is) and let me do my thing.  I am so glad I signed up for a year because I probably would have quit.  I am not a quiter, but I only have so many hours in a day and I am needed other places.  I has been hard to get to the gym as much  as I have and not see my family.  I keep telling myself it will be worth it, but on Monday I was not sure if that was the case.  Tues morning I headed to the gym and got right back into it.  I am contuining to go each morning and evening but by dang I had better see more than 1 pound at next weigh in.  It is also my time of the month so I am sure that I am retaining water and I even feel bloated so I am chalking some of it up to that.  It was not a total waste because I feel so much better and Jim even told me I am happier to be around.  I have more energy and play with the kids more.  So that is good.  My trainer also told me my posture is getting much better because the muscles are tighting back up so it was not all bad, but boy was I expecting more than one pound.  Jason (my trainer) increased my cardio and I am not looking forward to that.  But I am going to do it.  Anyway enough gripping time to get back on track.  I'll update you soon.

MONDAY 11/2/2009 WORKOUT
{CARDIO}
   * Cycling Class 45-50 Mins. burned 450 calories
   * Cycling 30 Mins. burned 140 calories
{WEIGHTS}
   * Bulgarian split squat 6 sets of 12 reps (3 sets each leg)
   * Calf Raises 3 sets of 20 reps
   * Lunges 3 sets of 20 reps
   * Leg Curls 3 sets of 12 reps (50 lbs)
   * Leg Extensions 3 sets of 12 reps (50 lbs)
   * Leg Press 3 sets of 12 reps (50 Lbs)
   * Abd crunches 2 sets of 30 reps

Total Calories Eaten: 1586

TUESDAY 11/03/09 WORKOUT
{CARDIO}
   * Cycling 12 Mins burned 50 calories
   * Cycling 13 Mins burned 70 calories 2.1 miles
   * Elliptical 26 Mins burned 215 calories
   * Ellipitcal 5 Mins burned 60 calories (resistance 8)  (speed 8.0)
{WEIGHTS}
   * Barbell Bench Press 4 sets of 12 reps
   * Dumbell curls 3 sets of 30 reps (5 lbs)
   * Machine chest flye 3 sets 15 reps (30 lbs)
   * Machine chest press 3 sets 12 reps (30 lbs)
   * Abd oblique crunch 2 sets 20 reps
   * Abd crunch 1 set 20 reps, 3 sets 30 reps
   * Abd crunch Machine 3 sets 12 reps

Total Calories Eaten: 1329

Happy Halloween!!!

Well at the gym it was 80's day.  What fun to live in the past and listen to the great music.  Had a blast at kickboxing class although I wish it was a little faster paced.  It is great for a begining class, but needs to be kicked up a notch.  There is a class after the kickboxing one I have wanted to go to for some time so today I went.  It is called dance motion.  You learn the moves to different dance and it was so fun.  No you don't need to go and have your eyes checked.  You read it right.  I want to a dance class and had fun.  Today we learned the thriller dance and it was great.  My kids all want me to show them now and we are having a great time.  Hope everyone has a safe and happy Halloween!!!

Sorry I am emotional!!!!!

Maybe spin class is worth it.  I found out you burn a ton of calories.
Well I get weighed in on Monday and I am kinda nervous. I have seriously been working my butt off, but my scales at home don't show it.

{HERE IS WHERE I GET EMOTIONAL}
I know some of you watch the biggest loser and the last episode hit me really hard. Those close to me know I have had similar feelings to what Abby was having. I have survived but have not really lived. I have not been happy for quite awhile and miss my mom more than ever. I have been on several different meds, and they take the edge off but nothing has trully helped. I am hoping like Abby this will be my inside change as well as my outside change. I really want the old me back. I want to be a good mom and not worry constantly about who will die next. I want to enjoy some of the time my husband is gone hunting and not sit and cry all night worrying if something has happened to him because I can't get a hold of him, and I don't want to call my brother hysterical and him have to clam me down and assure me everything is ok. I want to watch my kids play their sports and not be thinking I wonder if this is the last time I will see them play? Will they be the next one to go? I really want to let go and release all this I just don't know how. But when Abby said you have a choice it hit me. I am punishing myself. I have the choice to hold on to the past and be depressed and worry about the future.  Or I have to choice to start new and live each day to the fullest. Thanks Abby!

I am not Happy:(

I did not go to the gym this morning. I have been so good, but this morning when my alarm went of at 4:00 am. I just couldn't do it. I was exhausted. Jim told me I did way to much yesterday so I though I would take this morning off. I will still be going to the Gym after work and doing weights and cardio so I will still get some exercise in just not twice today. Hopefully I will get a little rested to day and hit it hard again in the morning.





Breakfast 6:30am - Frosted wheat cereal with skim milk.
Morning Snack 10:30am - string cheese, grapes.
Lunch 12:30 - Fiesta chicken salad (no corn and no tortilla).
Afternoon Snack 3:00pm - cookie (oops)
Dinner 7:00pm - Taco

Total Calories: 1357


WORKOUT

Weights:
Shoulder/Back/Arms: With my shoulder still be being jacked I am trying to do the best I can. My trainer tried to get to me to hold 3lb weights, but my shoulder couldn't do it. I did some amazing stretches for my shoulder and then the weights for my back and arms. It was a great workout today.

Cardio:
Bike 30 mins

Are we done Yet??????????

You know in that last post where I commented about whether I pushed myself hard enough in spin class. That is B.S.! I sat on the bike this morning and thought I was going to die. My butt killed, and my legs were rubber and throbbed like crazy! I took one turn of the pedals and thought "Are we done Yet!" That was the longest hour of my life. But it is over!!!!!!!!!!! After class my cycling instructor came and talked to me and told me how great I was doing and how good it was to see me back for more. As she and I talked a little bit she told me she had completed the journey I am now on & lost over 60 lbs. What an inspiration to me. To see someone who had struggled just like I am and now is teaching the class. I love stories like this because you see all those "skinny you know whats" and I just want to pound em. It is not fair that some of us have to work so hard. But to see that it can be done is refreshing. Ok so sorry to all the "skinny you know whats". I am not jealous I love me, (just not the fatty layer). I won't go to hell for not loving my fatty layer right.

WORKOUTS
Cardio:

Cycling: 60 minutes
Elliptical: 5 minutes burned 50 calories
Bike: 30 minutes burned 110 calories

Weights:

LEGS
Calf Raises: 4 Sets (90 lbs)of 12 reps
Machine Leg Curls: 4 Sets (90 lbs)of 12 reps
Machine Leg Extensions: 4 sets (50 lbs) of 12 reps
Sumo Squats: 3 sets (16 lbs) for 20 reps
Stanging Calf Raises: 7 sets 0f 20 reps

ARMS
bumbell biceps curl: 3 sets(8lbs)of 25 reps.


NUTRITION - (Not the best day!)
Breakfast 6:30am - String Cheese, Fuze, Apple, Whole Wheat bagel w/cream cheese
Morning Snack 10:00am -Kettle baked potato chips.
Lunch 12:30 pm - BBQ grilled chicken, spinach, tomato, olive, and cheese pizza (1.5 servings)
Afternoon Snack 3:00pm - Peanut Butter Cookie
Dinner: 7:00 pm -Pork Chop and Shell pasta
TOTAL CALORIES: 1889 I want this be closer to the 1500 mark. I am getting better, but still ahve a long way to go. My Carbs and Fats are to high surprise surprise.

Spin Class kicked my TRASH!!!

was bound and determined not to quit.Well I took my first spin class on Monday and it sucked.  About 15-20 mins into it I thought my legs were going to fall off, and my butt hurt so bad.  Let me tell ya I hope the seats get more comfortable because after breaking my tailbone it is sensitive.  I thought there is no way I will last the full hour.  But I was bound and determined not to quit.  Sometimes I had to sit when the class was standing, and I am sure I didn't have my bike turned up as high as I should have for the climbs, but I kept pedaling and did not quit.  The teacher was so good with me and kept encouraging me.  Today I was not as sore as I thought I would be so now I am wondering if I pushed myself enough.  Well tomorrow at 5:00 am is day two of my spin class and then I have a nutritional teaching at 4:00pm and then my trainer Jason at 5:00 pm.  Wish me luck.  My weigh ins are coming up the first of Nov and I am very nervous.  My hardest thing to give up is my pop.  I have definitely cut back so that is a start.  Great job Jen on your lack of soda!!!!!!!

WEIGHTING the options......

Well a couple of weeks ago I had a melt down. I realized my birthday was a couple of months away and it would be my 32nd birthday. Now for most people this would a happy time. A time to celebrate. And don't get me wrong I am very greatful for all I have in my life. I have the best family and friends anyone could ask for. However this realization brought tears to my eyes as for I would only have a year left. I am sure some of you are asking - what are you talking about? But the thought of my mom dying at the young age of 33 has hit really hard. If that were me I would only have one year left. I am not sure all the factors that lead to my moms heartattack, but I do know she was out of shape, overweight, over worked, and very stressed. As I look at my life I notice I am following down her same path. As much as I would love to be like my mom to die at the age of 33 is not in my plan. Thats when it hit me! Are you going to sit here and cry or are u going to get off your butt and do something about it. So that day I meet with a trainer at Golds Gym. After learning how bad I had let myself go I decided I was ready for a change. I was going to make the time to take care of myself so I could in turn live to take care of my family. I joined Golds Gym weighting 152 lbs and 32% body fat. I am starting this blog to help me deal with all the ups and downs I will have along the journey. I also want my kids to know we are not blessed with "Skinny" genes it is not going to be easy, but it is going to be worth it. Feel free to comment, share healthy recipies, workouts, etc. And join me in the journey. My goal is to be 118 lbs a year from now. I somewhat feel this is a steep goal, but my trainer assures me it is reachable. So here we go!!!!